As I mentioned in my first post in this LS series, it would be easier not to write about lichen sclerosus. It’s a departure from my usual musings. An even greater departure from my books.
My memoir, An Accidental Awakening: It’s not about yoga; It’s about family, has won 3 awards, while the follow-up, Awakening on Purpose: Trusting the call, won its first award last year.
I’m grateful for the recognition and thought I’d found my writing sweet spot.
I didn’t see myself diving into research on all-things vulva!
Then again, I didn’t see myself with LS. My philosophy on life has been one of bloom where you’re planted. If this is where I’m growing right now, then this is where I’ll work to support others.
It can be tricky, as a writer, to keep up your enthusiasm when you put writing into the world and get crickets in return. But, I remember those early days after realizing I had LS. I scoured the web but not for what you’d think.
I didn’t immediately look for research. I looked for women who had it, who were living with LS. What was their experience? What had they tried? What worked for them?
I didn’t leave likes or comments on their posts. LS is a covert op. I realize that few want to speak openly about it… and that’s understandable.
I remember moving from tears of despair to tears of gratitude within minutes of reading the posts of women openly sharing their experiences. I wasn’t alone in my suffering.
So, you don’t need to comment. I know you’re here.
When I wrote my memoirs, it was part processing some of the most potent times of my life and part putting it on paper to help women who feel alone in motherhood, sense of self, purpose and spiritual awakening.
My editor once told me that I’m not like other writers she knows. It’s less about the writing for me and more about helping others. Maybe that was her way of telling me my writing craft needs work. 😉 No, if you knew my editor, you’d know she says what she means.
This is where I am now. At this point in my life, I am working to understand LS, deepen my body/mind/spirit connection, let go of any unresolved/unprocessed emotions or life experiences and share what I learn as a source of support for others.
In the process, my community is expanding, my heart is opening wider and I remind myself each day to lighten up, laugh more and accept who I am now.
Next month, I may be diving into a different subject. In fact, I have 2 other books on the go and can’t wait to get to them.
Thanks. I needed a break from research today and from LS. I just wanted to sit down with a cup of tea and have a nice chat with you. What’s happening in your life?
Here, the robins are singing, the purple tulips from my best friend are in full bloom in my kitchen and apples are baking in the oven. It’s a good day. I think I’ll take every opportunity to simply enjoy this day, right where I’m planted.
Wishing you a wonderful, slow, simple-pleasures kind of day.
Read the next post in the series: Lichen sclerosus and breath
3 thoughts on “More musings on lichen sclerosus”
Hi Stephanie! I have read with interest your series on LS. I can imagine it must be hard to share your experience and research on such an intimate problem. While I personally can’t relate, I appreciate that you are reaching out to people who might.
Are you still living at the same house? Don and I have taken up pickle ball and are playing 3x a week at the Tuscany club. Matty (can you still call him that?) must be all grown and Kasha too!
I enjoy reading about your successes as an author and all your endeavors. I wish you were still training though. 🙂🧘🏼
Namaste Sandy Van Tetering
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I miss you! Thank you for being here and for your kind words.
I’m not in the same house but still in the community. No more yoga studio… but I do have a large yard… backyard yoga? 😉
Pickle ball. Such fun! And a great way to stay in shape. You two are awesome.
Matty (I’ll always call him that) is graduating. Blows my mind.
It’s great to hear from you. Say hi to your family for me.